You.

June 3, 2009

 

 

 

 

You. The very mention of your name make girls swoon over… so when you told me you loved me, it was as if time was at a stand still… as if all the alcohol I have drunk was racing to my head and conspiring to make it explode.

 

 

You. Synonymous to player, babaero, manloloko. So when you told me you loved me it was as if the world made the biggest joke… and I was unfortunate enough to be the butt of it.

 

 

Drink alcohol.

 

 

You. Pursued me and with every attempt I made to evade your charms I was getting sucked by an all consuming black hole. And as was inevitable I gave in.

 

 

Drink alcohol.

 

 

You. The perfect trophy. Shining with all your glory. Handsome and rich… and that was your only purpose to me, a trophy. But as moments pass that I spent in your arms, I knew that I couldn’t fool anyone. Not even myself.

 

 

Drink alcohol.

 

 

You. Say the words I want to hear… your expression of your love move me to tears. Why has life decided to be so cruel to me? Why can’t I suppress this feeling that I have for you that has grown so completely awry?

 

 

Drink alcohol.

 

 

You. Are my self-torture device. That I myself have chosen to turn on… and you made the first step turning it off… as I was crying myself to sleep one night for the pain was to unbearable, you were there and without a single word you held me cradled me in your arms telling me that you would never leave me and you’d be sure to fight anything that would hurt me… chase away all my fears as your eyes were drenched as well in tears… at that moment the pain was gone… even the stupid hangover that I’ve grown not to mind. “Never leave me” you said, “chase away all my fears” you said. But didn’t you know that act had already chased my fears away. Because that was all I wanted… for you not to leave. The tears rolling down your cheeks were all the sincerity I could ever ask for…

 

 

You. Make me believe in chances. As I woke up with your eyes intently watching me, as you gently kissed my forehead I thought to myself maybe, just maybe you really do love me… with that one thought I smiled. He smiled as well, saying “I think I’m in love with an insane woman! One minute she’s crying, smiling the next.” And then he giggled, my God! How adorable the sound he made! Then seriousness in his face returned “why were you crying?” silence. “Fine! If you won’t tell me why you were crying at least tell me why you were smiling.” Silence. “Maybe” he said “you shouldn’t drink anymore.” And I said “I’d give up anything for you.” He smiled then kissed me… but in my heart it answered: “You. You were the reason for everything. The torture. And thankfully, finally the delight.”

 

 

I know what I am facing is not an actual guaranteed happiness. But I also know this feeling is much better!

 

*smiles*

notes.notes.notes

This one is actually quite funny:))

 

 

Progress notes ng isang malanding nurse:
- receive patient conscious, coherent and handsome with great smile, nice eyes at super hotness lever
- GSH (great sense of humor) assessed
- THB (totally hot body) inspected
- friendster checked and recorded
- (+) sign of intelligence and wealth
- (-) sign of boastfulness
- conversation rendered
- encouraged flirting
- needs very much attended
- due cellphone number given
- TLC (tender lovin care) rendered
- endorsed to best friend

 

 

*ismaylz*

STRANGER

June 1, 2008

 

 

nung minsan nakilala kita, nungminsan naging kaibigan kita, nungminsan nagmahal at nasaktan ako.

matagal na akong naghihintay na may dumating na estranghero sa buhay ko na mamahalin ako, at NAKILALA nga kita isa lang ang nasabi ko sa sarili ko “sya na kaya? sana nga…” sabi ng mga kaibigan ko masyado daw akong attached syo, nakalimutan ko na daw sila, may KAIBIGAN na daw kasi akong bago.

walang araw na di kita nakita at naka-usap, walang araw na di mo sinabing “ingat ka lagi! love you friend!” ako naman walang ibang sagot kundi “kaw din.” pag gabi tatawag pa makapag “goodnight” lang. ramdam ko na mahalaga ako sa estrangherong ito.

isang gabi tumawag ka nauutal di alam ang sasabihin, naguguluhan. laking gulat ko nalang nang sinabi mong “i love you”. di ko alam kung ano at papano ang gagawin ko nung oras na iyon. hindi ako nakatulog, bigla ko nalang narinig na nagbeep yung cellphone ko ngtext ka. sabi mo di ka rin makatulog.

lumipas ang isang buwan inamin kong mahal rin kita. hinding hindi ko makakalimutan ang araw na iyon. naging maganda ang pagsasama natin, lahat ng nakakaalam sa relasyon natin ay tuwang tuwa sa atin. sa lahat ng plano ko sa buhay kasama ka. ni minsan di kita inalis sa isip ko at alam ka rin.

apat na araw bago mag valentine’s day mag kasama tayo masayang masaya. ngunit dumating ang araw ng valentine’s ni tawag sa telepono wala akong natanggap mula syo, bukod sa isang text “di ako makakatawag nagkaayan eh.. chaka wala akong load bye. loveyou” nalungkot ako non pero ayos lang kasi naiintindihan kita, at ang alam ko mahal mo ko… ito ang pinaka malungkot kong valentine;s day. monthsary pa dapat natin yun.

dalawang araw na ang lumipas di ka parin nagpaparamdam. sabado tumawag ka syempre tuwang tuwa ako ang sabi mo “sorry di ako nakakatawag kasi grounded ako” ako naman okey lang” sabay sabi mong nagmamadali pa ” sige dito na sila eh tumakas lang ako bye I…” sabay tut tut tut… isang linggong di pagpaparamdam halos malokaloka na ko kakaisip kung ano na nangyari sayo. tumawag ako sa inyo kapatid mo sumagot ang gulat na gulat ng marinig ako at ibinigay sayo ng maka-usap kita ang sabi mo lang “pupunta ko Nueve ecija sa bakasyon” ako naman “ah ganun ba” KATAHIMIKAN… sinigawan kita lahat ng sama ng loob ko inilabas ko pero kahit anong salita wala akong narinig mula sayo. tinanong kita “ano ba gusto mong mangyari?” saka ka nagsalita “kool-off” sabay baba sa telepono.

nung gabing iyon wala akong ginawa kundi umiyak ng umiyak. kinabukasan parang walang nangyari, wala akong pinagsabihan tungkol sa nangyari. ang alam nila OK lang ako at masaya, pag dating ng gabi chaka nag-iiyak. ang galing kong magpretend na napaka saya ko.

lumipas na ang dalawang taon hanggang ngayon naghihintay parin ako dito sayo. pero kahit bumalik ka man o hindi isa lang ang masasabi ko sayo, SALAMAT! dahil tinuruan mo akong magmahal, pinadama mo sakin kung gano kasarap ang may nagmamahal at tinuruan mo akong maging matatag.

“INGAT KA LAGI ESTRANGHERO”

 

(FROM: ANONYMOUS}

NBSB.

May 31, 2008

Are you desperately in need of a boyfriend? Just because you don’t want to be alone anymore and your friends all have boyfriends already? If you are feeling that way, stop thinking about it. Being single doesn’t mean you are alone in this world, you have your friends and family if you need company right? And you don’t need to be a part of a couple just to be complete. Being single gives you a chance to love yourself, appreciate the things around you and do things that attached people cannot. It may worry you that you are still single but that is okay, we are just humans and we tend to feel insecure or maybe pathetic at times.

If you are feeling alone while your friends are cuddling with their men, don’t ever think there is something wrong with you, it’s just not your time to shine yet. Having a boyfriend is not an instant thing, it will take time, unless of course if you are looking for a fling not a boyfriend. But anyhow, being single means more free time to do the stuff you love without asking permission to anyone and more chances of meeting more people or maybe a totally hot guy ei!?

Single life is not the worst thing that could ever happen to you unless you see it that way. We need to be reminded that getting or having a boyfriend should comes with the right reason not with the reason that you don’t want to be left out with the crowd. Reality check: There are more women who tend to be more successful because they remained unattached until they are there in the spotlight of their career. If we are in a relationship and wanted to explore things or check our options, it might be hard for us to pursue it because you don’t want your other behalf to be left behind or maybe you don’t want your attention to be grabbed by any other else. We need to consider a lot of things if we are attached so it’s much more better to remain single while you are at it. I’m not saying you cannot achieve anything if you have a boyfriend or girlfriend, it’s just my way of saying, there’s more to life of a single than the attached.

If you are single, enjoy it. You are not going to be single forever of course, so while you are patiently waiting for your dream man or woman, enjoy your freedom. Being single is the only way where you get to know yourself much more better and discover things that are hiding in there. You might be surprise of the things that you will see and learn. Trust me.

[manith]

Teenage Drama Queen..?

May 28, 2008

 

 

 

It’s easy to fall in love to someone who’s smart or intelligent,
Who had this lovely and kind image, who’s very caring, sweet and affectionate..
Why not? Everybody’s ideal mate..

But how about those girls who’s on the other side?
Girls who have decided not to flip the coin,
A mean and strong girl, yes,
They thought she was but inside her she’s silently bleeding..
Longing for warmth..

Everybody has our own sweet dreams.,
Own Cinderella fantasies.,
Own ideal Romeo or Juliet.,
And she also has her own.

Everybody has der own weaknesses.,
No one is excluded.
Even the strongest person we thought.

some said she’s a Teenage drama queen
doesn’t know what is love
and how to love at all..
they pity this POOR girl

She’s a student, but she doesn’t always go to class.
She’s catholic, but doesn’t always go to church.
She’s a girl, but… well…
Her hair glistens in the rain like nose hair after a sneeze.
Her eyes are like two brown circles with big black dots in the center.
She is as petite as a five-foot, six-inch tree, only without the heels.

Her vocabulary can be as bad as, like, whatever. But, she likes using alot of other words because the ones she needs to express herself succinctly have not yet been invented. And she doesn’t think every sentence has to end with a period

she wants RESPECT more than PRAISES
she preferred to be DIGNIFIED more than being POPULAR
she chose to be a WOMAN than to be a MAN’S LADY

How can she unveil her true feelings and emotions ?
She needs to be loved by someone.

But who? How? WHEN?
She needs it now!!

Sinong makapagsasabing masarap siyang mahalin?
Sinong magtatangkang yakapin siya habang pumipiglas?
Sinong mas pipiliin siya at hindi ipagpapalit sa kahit sinoman?

Who needs her?
Who loves her?
Who loves the Teenage drama queen?