BENCH

Dont let yourself fall
if you know that no one would catch you
coz you’ll just feel the pain
when you hit the ground

Would you sacrifice your friendship
just for your own happiness?

Bess, Bez, Bezpriend…

Yeah right. As I watched MMK episode last night entitled BENCH, I cant help not to reminisce the past with my bestfriend. We were best friends. Well, technically, maybe we are. We were both childish that we didnt know what is happening. And to make the story short. We fell in love with each other or maybe INFATUATED is the right term for that? Ah.. I dont know. But, I walked up one day realizing that I really love him but only AS A FRIEND. I really misjudge my feelings thinking I was inlove with him too that I give him false hope.But I don`t want that kind of relationship, yung from bestfriends to lovers. Kasi mahirap yan eh, if ever maging kayo man, siguro at first, happy. Pero what if mag break na kayo? Of course, hindi naman na ganun kadali i-return yung dating relationship niyo as bestfriends or baka nga maging strangers pa tingin niyo with each other diba? You will not only lose your boyfriend but also your bestfriend, right?Kaya, i did nit give him the assurance na magiging kami.Then one day, the bestfriend we have turned into false stangers. I just dont know what happened but we started ignoring with each other.  Bitter?! hmm, I don’t think wala, since this happened naman na long time ago, so we learned how to “let go”. After that time  we just stopped communicating. Siguro din kasi, biglaan kaming naging mg bestfriends tpos nagkaroon ng understanding, so ayun biglaan din na walang communication   Though it was harder for me at first, kasi he was the one who ignore, and I didn’t even had the courage to explain my side, well I tried but were yet too far from each other. When it didnt worked out… we can no longer go back to the same status… we cant even be friends… so sad nga eh.

I’m not discouraging all of  you ha?Kasi iba-iba naman tau ng pag handle ng bestfriends-lovers relationship e, yung samin lang hindi lang ng work out. Kasi we know each other well na, na walang thrill sa mga buhay namin, and syempre as “bestfriends” alam mo na kung mga kalokohan ng bawat isa, so parang kahit paano my duda yung “trust” na binibigay sayo o yung ibibigay mo sa kanya..so ayun ang ending namin, we lost each other as “zeb” and “bestfriends”.

Sabi nga ni Charo Santos sa MMK last night, “Katulad nga ng kwento nina Ermie at John (characters nina Megan Young at Joross Gamboa sa MMK) hindi lahat ng matalik na kaibigan ay nagtatagumpay din sa romantic relationship. May natatanging bonding ang pagkakaibigan na nawawala kapag nauuwi sa relasyong mas malalim pa roon. Sometimes, THE BEST OF FRIENDS MAY NOT BE THE BEST LOVERS. Pero ang pagmamahal at pagrespeto na kaya nilang ibigay sa isa’t isa ang mas importante anuman ang kanilang relasyon.”

Siguro, one of the reason why I post this is a way of saying I MISS YOU, BEZ. I miss the way you act like a child, yong pagiging KULITZ(super1) slash caring mo!! hehe.. Sayang hindi ko man lang nasabi sayo that YOU are one of a kind BESTFRIEND. Nakz. Maybe If I could turn back time, I will choose to be your bestfriend again. Pero wala na eh .Its too late for the both of us to rearrange everything. All I can say, kung nasaan ka man, abot man ang globe o smart jan, You are the only person that I can call a friend. no matter who u r , what u do do, you will be my best friend forever. . Nakz. Kaya Fighting. =)

“Many people will walk in and out of your life, but only true friends will leave footprints in your heart”

 *ismaylz*