At the Pedestrian Crossing

Have you ever experienced that moment when you are so near to each other you could not help but think about getting closer? I was there. It was embarrassing but I was the one who felt the need to touch. Like I would grab his arm just to ask for the scissors where I could have just asked him out loud. Like I would brush away leaves on his hair when I could just have blown them away.

Yesterday, we met at the pedestrian crossing. But unlike those stories of ex lovers, ours was different. That time, when i saw you, im having a hard time to deal seeing you crossing towards me, I can only do so much as to beg you to stay. Seeing you, talking to you are the things that first comes to mind. I quite find it funny that when I saw you, Im practicing the lines like..”Oi, musta na? Man ara ka dri?”.. But all of my inhibitions erased as you walked away with me at the pedestrian croosing.  And it hurts like hell. My pangz(besshez) comforted me by saying, “Manith, la ka nya guro nakita”. Yeah, ,aybe you didint see me or maybe you see me but ignored me.

Ah, I don’t want to cry. I want to take away the ache I’m feeling, but still something inside tells me to stay, to be there when he needs me, to still care.And between my sobs, I heard my lips utter the words “ I love him”. That was it. In an instant I knew the answers to my questions. I struggled but I stopped crying, took a deep breath and tried to calm down. Damn. After all these time, it still hurts.

Maybe it will be the last meeting for both of us, well, I did not know that it was going to be our last meeting. The thought that I would never see him again crossed my mind only when I was already on my way home. I’ll never see him again, I’ll never see him again…

in the Pedestrian Crossing.

*ismaylz*

Lang kwentang xurvei.

Missing highschool..=((

This afternoon I went to my highschool alma mater, CPC to get my FORM137. Oh yeah, did I mention I was all by myself .

Can you imagine that? It’s been 4 years since I graduated High School and yes I really miss the fun, excitement, hang outs and many things about it. Not only that, I also miss my friends, whom I haven’t seen for a long time.

 I absolutely miss high school. And I’ve been out of high school for 4 years now. We were all SO excited to graduate and just be done with high school, but once I started college, I really missed it.

I missed the familiarity, the same old friends, the routine, my hometown, everything. 

I also missed the kodigo, unity, mr.chips, canteen, goophers, coke, inasal, chapel, singkamas, pictyur2x, recollection,  were we had so much fun.

This is where I first learned to become strong. This is where I first learned how to appreciate things. Not to mention. This is where i first meet my first love and This is where i first experienced my first ever heartbreak.

Now, I don’t feel bad about looking at pictures from high school and just remembering good times. That’s normal. Hell, I STILL look through my yearbooks a few times a year and I graduate high school YEARS ago. And now that I will graduated with college, I have some of the same feelings about my college friends. I will miss them A LOT; I will miss college, but it’s easier to deal with this time around simply because I know this sort of…”grieving” process is normal.

 I think i really enjoyed my high school days and i had cherish every moment in my high school life cause there is no rewind…

i don’t care about my mistakes cause i think it is needed in order for us to learn something…
that’s what life is all about…
learning from the past and making your experiences useful for the future…
no regrets cause it will lead you to nothing…

*ISMAYLZ*

profy

MANITH’S PLAYLIST

Be careful what you wish for.

Be careful what you wish for.

Totoo pala un noh? Waaaah sira ulo ka talaga Manith!!!! Hindi na nga ako magwwish.

I have a new addiction. Hindi naman siya bad kaya wag kayong magalala. ;] Silent reader kasi ako sa Teentalk. Tapos I just started reading this story. It’s called ‘Rent-A-Boyfriend’. In fairness, nakakakilig siya! Parang gusto ko tuloy mag rent ng isang CC! @___@ Baliw na ako sa isang fictional character.

*ismaylz*

First day of school

Huh?
furst day of school?
what actually happened?

Oohh… well, i went to school at around 8:30 and arrived there at around 9:00…
I didn’t know that Roxas has loads of cars already and cars means traffic!
When i arrived in school i went to meet my friends/classmates/pangz already and talk about different stuffs…
It was a pretty normal day filled with nothing but talks…
I kinda enjoy this cause unlike my other advisers… my new teacher didn’t read those boring rules but instead made it an interactive discussion… i was happy i didn’t get to talk in front in a long time… but i figured out that i’m such a talkative person and i need to control my mouth from now on… my writing/imagination works isn’t working already…
noooooo… i have to balance this in order to find order in my life… i think talking all day and writing all night is enough… and is a cool one for me already…

i think i really should enjoy cause my college school days are almost over and i need to cherish every moment that i have in this part of life cause there is no rewind…
i don’t care about my mistakes cause i think it is needed in order for us to learn something…
that’s what life is all about…
learning from the past and making your experiences useful for the future…
no regrets cause it will lead you to nothing…

*ismaylz*

BENCH

Dont let yourself fall
if you know that no one would catch you
coz you’ll just feel the pain
when you hit the ground

Would you sacrifice your friendship
just for your own happiness?

Bess, Bez, Bezpriend…

Yeah right. As I watched MMK episode last night entitled BENCH, I cant help not to reminisce the past with my bestfriend. We were best friends. Well, technically, maybe we are. We were both childish that we didnt know what is happening. And to make the story short. We fell in love with each other or maybe INFATUATED is the right term for that? Ah.. I dont know. But, I walked up one day realizing that I really love him but only AS A FRIEND. I really misjudge my feelings thinking I was inlove with him too that I give him false hope.But I don`t want that kind of relationship, yung from bestfriends to lovers. Kasi mahirap yan eh, if ever maging kayo man, siguro at first, happy. Pero what if mag break na kayo? Of course, hindi naman na ganun kadali i-return yung dating relationship niyo as bestfriends or baka nga maging strangers pa tingin niyo with each other diba? You will not only lose your boyfriend but also your bestfriend, right?Kaya, i did nit give him the assurance na magiging kami.Then one day, the bestfriend we have turned into false stangers. I just dont know what happened but we started ignoring with each other.  Bitter?! hmm, I don’t think wala, since this happened naman na long time ago, so we learned how to “let go”. After that time  we just stopped communicating. Siguro din kasi, biglaan kaming naging mg bestfriends tpos nagkaroon ng understanding, so ayun biglaan din na walang communication   Though it was harder for me at first, kasi he was the one who ignore, and I didn’t even had the courage to explain my side, well I tried but were yet too far from each other. When it didnt worked out… we can no longer go back to the same status… we cant even be friends… so sad nga eh.

I’m not discouraging all of  you ha?Kasi iba-iba naman tau ng pag handle ng bestfriends-lovers relationship e, yung samin lang hindi lang ng work out. Kasi we know each other well na, na walang thrill sa mga buhay namin, and syempre as “bestfriends” alam mo na kung mga kalokohan ng bawat isa, so parang kahit paano my duda yung “trust” na binibigay sayo o yung ibibigay mo sa kanya..so ayun ang ending namin, we lost each other as “zeb” and “bestfriends”.

Sabi nga ni Charo Santos sa MMK last night, “Katulad nga ng kwento nina Ermie at John (characters nina Megan Young at Joross Gamboa sa MMK) hindi lahat ng matalik na kaibigan ay nagtatagumpay din sa romantic relationship. May natatanging bonding ang pagkakaibigan na nawawala kapag nauuwi sa relasyong mas malalim pa roon. Sometimes, THE BEST OF FRIENDS MAY NOT BE THE BEST LOVERS. Pero ang pagmamahal at pagrespeto na kaya nilang ibigay sa isa’t isa ang mas importante anuman ang kanilang relasyon.”

Siguro, one of the reason why I post this is a way of saying I MISS YOU, BEZ. I miss the way you act like a child, yong pagiging KULITZ(super1) slash caring mo!! hehe.. Sayang hindi ko man lang nasabi sayo that YOU are one of a kind BESTFRIEND. Nakz. Maybe If I could turn back time, I will choose to be your bestfriend again. Pero wala na eh .Its too late for the both of us to rearrange everything. All I can say, kung nasaan ka man, abot man ang globe o smart jan, You are the only person that I can call a friend. no matter who u r , what u do do, you will be my best friend forever. . Nakz. Kaya Fighting. =)

“Many people will walk in and out of your life, but only true friends will leave footprints in your heart”

 *ismaylz*

Tips, Techniques, Strategies on taking board exam.

This is it.

First of all.

I would like to say good luck to my brother who is taking the June 2009 NLE(FIGHTING BRO!).

Anyways, here are some tips, techniques, strategies on taking major exams like the NLE. Credits to http://nursingcrib.com/test-taking-tips-for-the-nursing-board-exam/

 Sometimes pure hard work and mental preparedness is not enough. The ability to answers exams or any test faster is a must specially if it is bounded by time. Usually the pressure sets in if the time is working against you and even if you’ve prepared 100%, it can ruin entirely what you have poured in. We have outlined test taking tips and strategies applicable not only in  in the June 2009 Nursing Board Exam but also in any type of multiple choice exams including NCLEX.

The Parts of a Question
The question contains several parts:

• the case (sometimes called scenario) - the description of the client and what is happening to him/her
• the stem - the part of the question that asks the question
• the correct response
• distracters - incorrect but feasible choices

Key Words
The most important skill for the test taker is the ability to read the question carefully and determine the key elements in each question. Each question has key words. Key words relate to the client; to the problem; and to specific aspects of the problem.

Client
Factors such as age, sex, and marital status may be relevant. When a child’s age is given it often is very relevant to the answer. Vital signs vary with age. Preoperative teaching methods vary with age. Appropriate toys and diversional activities vary with age. Always pay special attention to the age of a client when it is given. Also consider who is the client for this question. That is, who is the focus of the question. The client may be the identified sick person, or it might be a relative of the identified sick person, or even a staff member.

Problem/Behavior
The problem may be a disease, a symptom or a behavior.

Details of the Problem

• Is the question asking for nursing actions or client symptoms or family responses?
• Does the question ask about a specific aspect of nursing care assessment, planning, implementation, evaluation?
• Does the question ask details relevant to a specific symptom or behavior the client exhibits?
• Is there additional information about the client or the problem that is important?

Priority Setting

• “What action takes priority?”
• “What should the nurse do first?”
• “What should the nurse do initially?”
• “What is essential for the nurse to do?”

Physiologic needs are first, followed by safety needs, then love and belonging, self-esteem and self-actualization.

The first step of the nursing process is assessment! When the stem of a question asks for the initial nursing action always look to see if there is a relevant assessment answer. The nurse will take an action only when there is enough data to act. Call the physician only when there is not a nursing action that should be taken first. The stem of the question may ask for a nursing action and the correct answer may be to assess.

When the stem of the question asks what is essential for the nurse to do, think safety. Remember many of the test questions are safety questions.

What is the Time Frame?
Whenever a specific time frame is indicated in a question it is very important. Pay attention to it. Time related words may be like early or late in relation in symptoms, pre operative or post operative, care on the day of surgery or later postoperative care.

Repeated Words
Words from the question are repeated in the answer. Frequently the same word or a synonym will be in both the question and the answer.

Opposites
When two answers are opposite such as high blood pressure and low blood pressure or increase the drip rate and stop the IV, or turn on the right side and turn on the left side, the answer is usually one of the two.

Same Answer
If two or three answers say the same thing in different words none can be correct. If the answers are too alike, then neither one is correct.

Odd Answer Wins
The answer that is different from the others is apt to be the correct answer. It may be the longest or the shortest or simply very different in content or style.

Umbrella Answer
One answer includes the others. There may be more than one correct answer. One answer is better than all the others because it includes them.

Test Item Check List
Use this handy list to check yourself every time you answer a test question.

Say to yourself, DID I CAREFULLY…

• Read the stem?
• Read all of the options?
• Read the stem again?
• Look for key words?
• Eliminate obviously incorrect options?

Absolutes
Answers containing universal or absolute words are very apt to be incorrect. Very little in life or nursing is always correct or incorrect. Answers stated in absolute terms should be looked at with great caution.

Choosing between the two best options

After eliminating the incorrect options and you are having difficulty choosing between two seemingly correct responses, use the following strategies:

• Eliminate Similar Distracters -  If two options are essentially saying the same thing or include the same idea, then neither of them can be the answer. The answer has to be the option that is different.
• Reread two seemingly correct options – If two options seem equally correct, reread them carefully; there must be some difference between them. Reread the stem; you may notice something you missed before.
• Look for a global response – A more general statement may also include correct ideas from other options.

Guidelines to follow during the exam:

• Budget your time – Although you may not know exactly how many questions you’ll be asked to answer, you can estimate a little over 1 minute per question. Keep moving at a steady pace.
• Read each question thoroughly but quickly – In general, your first reaction to a question is the correct one. Remember that the examination is designed to determine if you’re minimally competent and safe.
• Concentrate on one item at a time. Don’t worry about how many questions you’ll have to answer.
• Answer questions as if the situation were ideal. Assume the nurse had all the time and resources needed. You’re only concerned about one patient, the one in the question.
• Focus on the key words in the stem.
• Identify whether the stem is seeking a true response or a false response. Those stems asking for false responses are easily misread.
• Reword a difficult stem.
• Try answering the question before you’ve read the options provided.
• Always read all options before selecting the best one.
• Relate each option to the stem.
• Use logic and common sense to figure out the correct response.
• Remember that the correct option will tend to have greater applicability and flexibility.
• Clueless? Look for clues in answer choices instead of in the stem of the question.

10 Things to Remember on the day of the examination:

1. Get up early.
2. Wear comfortable clothes.
3. Check your things. (pencils, pens, etc.)
4. Eat breakfast.
5. Leave early so you will arrive early.
6. Do NOT study while you wait for your examination.
7. Read, listen to music, relax.
8. Leave notes and books at home.
9. Listen carefully to the instructions given by the test administrators.
10. Say a little Prayer before you begin.

The best of luck to all June 2009 Nursing Board Examinees!

Source:

NCLEX Reviewers
Drexel University
Lippincott Review Series

ISMAYL101

Boredome killz. Yeah. Have nothing to do so I browse some sites and I found this one. Yeah. Its JIBJAB and this one is so fantastic(am i endorsing here?^^,) nah. I try to do some jibjabs and i use the heads of my omma nad oppa..(what a naughty daughter am i!LOL). So just watch this one and Enjoy.

*ismaylz*

depressed.

So, it was a fine sunny day. That’s it. Fun.Fun.Fun. Then all of a sudden, there was this not so good  news that  break my day. First, my laboratory result. Yes, I still have my Dextroscoloisis. (Ouch) Then some abnormalities in my urinalysis and fecalysis results.Yeah right. I cant actually figure it out. Crap! Now what? Oh well, I just need to do my laboratory results over and over again. Oh what a hassle in my part. Grrrrr. Then my bro came and had this not so good news. Geeez. I cant elaborate further coz it was not yet confirmed by Dx. So, this is it. Im tired, im sick, im sad, im sleepy, im stressed eguals to DEPRESSED.

A fresh start.

It was a beautiful day as I looked outside my window. I stared down at my things scattered all over the place. There was a weird silence.
Then shortly a familiar tone was heard. My heart was pounding so hard not knowing why. I walked up closely to hear the words. I felt a sudden shiver.
Then I was struck on what I have heard.

*Sometimes goodbye though it hurts in your heart is the only way for destiny*

Memories of the past came running back.

After how many months I thought it was long gone…forgotten…never to appear again… I chose to close that chapter in my life… only to find out I was wrong… so wrong. It’s been a long time since that very day but I can still remember the pain, the anger and the suffering. I remember clearly how hard it was to pick up the pieces of my shattered heart…

I tried to be strong… I made myself believed that I had moved on… Then abruptly…unexpectedly…it came without a warning… it sneaked on me. I wasn’t ready for it. Everything that I have tried to hide and erased in my mind and in my heart came rushing back to me like a big gust of wind… I nearly lost my balance…unable to control it… I stumbled and I lie there waiting… I was scared and cold…

Suddenly…I felt a slight prick…it was as if I got stung…the pain was growing by the minute…my whole body was aching really hard.unable to breath.it feels like my heart is going to burst and my vision was becoming blurry.my legs were wet now.i looked up in the sky there was no sign of rain though it was a little bit darker than before.only to realize that the water was coming down from my eyes.why?????

Then it hit me. All those time of running…it finally caught up to me.even though it was right infront of my face i still tried to deny it.pretented it wasn’t there.but i can no longer run.and no matter how i tried to forsake it or refuse to believe it.i can’t do it anymore.i have no one and nothing to turn to.i feel so alone.alone in a little world I built for me to be able to cope.so isolated.so lonely. I hate this feeling…it hurts so much.and the worse part.i got myself to blame for everything.

I got up…a lil shaky but feeling a lil bit stronger now.i looked in the mirror.i stared deeply in my eyes.feelin uneasy as if it was the first time…i saw myself for who I was and i saw exactly what was wrong.all this time i have been afraid to confront my own feelings.i spent my time pointing my fingers on others because that made me feel a little bit better about myself…. i broke down.crying harder than before.i am so mad at myself.i can no longer stand the pain.then it happened.

Everything that I have kept in my heart…all the pains, all the regrets, all the anguish, all the suffering and all the agony was out. it burst out like striking a balloon with a needle… it was as if a big torn was lifted off of me… all I had to do was look inside of myself and see exactly me as me… not expecting some hero that could take on anything… right there I realized I’m not that strong… I’m no wonder woman… I’m also human like anybody else… Capable of making mistakes and capable of learning from them…capable of forgiving and forgetting. I realized can’t close one chapter of my life and pretend it never happened… I can never go back and there’s no chance of re-rewriting those pages but in closing a chapter I could open a new one… A fresh start… But that will only happen if I have moved on and truly let go not only of all the hurt and anger that others had inflicted upon me but what I had brought to myself as well…only then will myself be free.

My broken heart will never be the same. Nevertheless I will pick up all those pieces and hopefully shape it as it once was.

I looked at my window again and saw a rainbow. A little smile formed in my lips as the song ended.

*So say goodbye but don’t you cry cause true love never dies*

LOL:))

Ito po ang pinakaaabangan ng lahat ang…

Super Twinshehe jwk
Ito po ang 3rd Part ng Joke lang po

Basa na!!!!

Filipino Names converted to American Names
Dimitria Dagdag = Demi Moore

Rogelio Dagdag = Roger Moore

Emilio Salamat = Amillion Thanks

Leon Mangubat = Tiger Woods

Francisco Portero = Frank Porter

Bienvenido Jurado = Ben Hur

Juan Tampipi = John Samsonite

Victoria Malihim = Victoria Secret

Restituto Fruto = Tutti Frutti

Casimiro Bocaycay = Cashmere Bouquet

Veneracio de Asis = Venereal Disease

Alfonso de Asis = Alzheimer’s Disease

Topacio Mamaril = Top Gun

Eliutario Ignacio = Electronic Ignition

Juanito Lakarin = Johnny Walker

Esteban Pagtakahan = Stevie Wonder

Burgos Reyes = Burger King

Ligaya Almundo = Joy Totheworld

Maria Navidad = Mary Christmas

Ligaya Anonuevo = Happy New Year

Federico Hagibis = Federal Express

name of chinese people born in the philippines
names of chinese people born in the philippines
1.born during the night- ANDY LIM
2.born blind- KENNETH SY
3.born being swindled- LINO CO
4.born while cooking- NILO TOH
5.born as the 10th child- SAM PO
6.born while being courted- LILY GAW
7.born fat- BOB UY
8.born without leg- KENT GO
9.born little- KATHY TING
10.born with a vast estate- LOT TE
11.born different- EVA YAN
12.born uniqe- ALIEN SIA
13.born while counterfeiting- FAYE KING
14.born on sunday- LING GO
15.born with picture- LARA WAN
16.born with sweet- KEN DY
17.born undefined- SAM TING
18.born while taking a bath- LILY GO
19.born while buying- BILL LI
20.born secretly- TINA GO

Pinoy Diksyunaryo
dedicated - pinatay ang pusa

deduct - ang pato

defeat - ang paa

defense - ang bakod

defer - ang balahibo

deflate - ang plato

defrag - ang palaka

delusion - e di maluwag

depends - (see defense)

deposit - ang gripo

depress - nagkasal sa persuading (see persuading)

detail - ang buntot

detest - ang eksamen

devalue - ‘yon ang susunod sa letrang v

devastation - dun sasakay ng bus

devote - ang boto

dilemna - Gabi na

effort - dun nagla-land yung efflane

forums - apat na kuwarto

it depends - kainin mo ang bakod

july - nagsinungaling ka ba?

melt - ‘yun ang sinusuot sa mewang?

statue - ikaw ba ‘yan?

protestant - tindahan ng prutas

predicate - pakawalan mo ang pusa

thesis - sakit

Pinoy Diksyonaryo( iba naman to )

Abuloy — bayad sa nahigop na kape at nanguyang biskwit sa nilamayang sakla.
Akala —- alam na alam daw.
Aginaldo - inaasahan na makukuha sa araw ng Pasko na mas okay sana kung pera na lang.
Ama —— pamilyadong gustong maging binata
Bakasyon - sandaliang pahinga sa trabahong hingal lang ang pahinga.
Bakit —- tanong na laging mahirap masagot.
Bakya —- tsinelas na may takong.
Baga —– lutuan ng mga hindi makabili ng microwave.
Bagoong — masarap na ulam ng mga walang maiulam.
Baldado — hindi mamamatay-matay na mukhang hindi na mabubuhay.
Bale —– suweldong inutang.
Binata —— lalaking gustong maging ama
Biyenan —— anay ng tahanan
Kaaway — ikli ng ‘kaibigan na Inayawan.’
Kababata - dating gelpren na may ibang boypren.
Kabag —- dighay at utot na naghalo sa tiyan.
Kabayo — hayop na sinasakyan Ng kalesa.
Kabit —— asawang nakatira sa iba
Kalbo —- gupit ng buhok na korteng itlog.
Dalaga ——— babaeng gustong maging ina.
Dalaginding - dalagang hindi pa nagsusuot ng bra.
Dighay ——- Utot na lumabas sa bunganga.
Dilim —- liwanag na maitim.
E ——– ireng paseksi.
Gahasa — romansang walang ligawan.
Ginang — asawa ni ginoo na mukha nang tsimay.
Ginoo —- asawa ni ginang na may inaasawang iba.
Gipit —- kalagayan ng tao na suki na ng sanglaan.
Ha ——- sagot ng nagbibingi-bingihan.
Halakhak - tawang bukang-buka ang ngala-ngala.
Handaan — magdamagan na Palakihan ng tiyan.
Handog — bigay na laging may kapalit.
Hipo —– haplos na may malisya.
Hudas —- tapat na manloloko.
Ibon —– hayop na lumalangoy sa Hangin.
Imposible - pagtaas ng unano.
Ina ——– pamilyadang gustong maging dalaga.
Insulto — walang hiyang biro.
Isda —— hayop na hindi Nalulunod.
Itlog ——- pagkaing amoy utot
Ita ——- negrong Pinoy.
La ——– ikli ng ‘lalalalala’ sa kinakantang hindi maalala.
Lalawigan - syudad ng kahirapan.
Langaw —- kulisap na bangung-bango sa amoy ng basura.
Ma ——– tawag sa gelpren na mukhang nanay na.
Malusog — hitsura ng tumatabang balat.
Mama —— tawag sa sosyal na ina.
Mano —— kaugaliang Pinoy na nakapupudpod ng noo…. at bulsa.
Mantika — katas ng piniritong taba.
Mayabang ——– abusadong tanga.
Maybahay — dominanteng utusan sa bahay.
Nanay —- Ilaw ng tahanan
Nakaw —– hiram ng walang paalam
Naku —— ikli ng ‘nanay ko, nanay na ako.’
Nitso —– bahay ng mga patay.
Nobya —– gelpren na laking probinsya.
Ngalngal — iyak ng walang ipen.
Ngisi —– tawang tulo-laway.
Ngiti —– tawang labas ipen.
Paa ——- bahagi ng katawan na amoy tuta.
Paaralan — dito itinuturo kung ano, alin o sino ang mapipiling bobo.
Panata —- dasal na nakatataba ng tuhod.
Regla —– masungit na panahon ng pagkababae.
Sabon —– mabangong bagay na ipinapahid sa mabahong katawan.
Sakristan - utusan ng pari.
Sampal —- haplos na nakatitigas ng mukha.
Ta ——– ikli ng ‘tita’ o lalaking may bra.
Tamad —– taong hindi napapagod sa pahinga.
Tatay —– haligi ng tahanan
Utot——– Dighay na lumabas sa puwit
Ulol ——– sobrang matalino
Wala ——- salitang tagalog na minana ng mga ingles.
Yaya ——– alaga ng ama ng inaalagaang bata.

*ismaylz*

Untolerable Lightness of Being Cute.

Some people would say I’m egotistic. I’m not. I just happen to be cute. I’m not pretty (see the humility in that line?), just cute. What’s the difference? Pretty accounts for something striking, cute pertains to something pleasant. And that’s just what I am.

Don’t get me wrong, I’m not perfect. But I strongly believe I am cute. I am. Don’t laugh. Really, I am. Fine, I’ll prove it.

Too many people just say that I AM cute. I’m not drop dead gorgeous, nor am I the anorexic-supermodel type. But seriously, I actually get sick of being called cute. I don’t take compliments that well, and honestly, it annoys the hell out of me. It’s like, I have this please-peel-your-lips-off-my-ass kind of attitude. But hey if they all say it, it must be true, right?

Stalkers. I’m flattered, but I have too many things to do besides pay attention to them. Ok fine, I’m irresistible, can we just move on? The weirdest ones are probably those who tell me straight-out that I’m sexy. Wutdahel? Egad. Please. Stop before I vomit.

Because beauty is not skin deep. Inner beauty. I’m probably one of the nicest people around. One of those freakingly law-abiding (read: no jaywalking), recycling advocate and honest fiends of society. Somebody even had the gall to ask me if I ever get angry. I do, but why get waste energy in getting mad. Somebody else will get them in the end anyway. Besides, I don’t want to get wrinkles too soon. Why stress yourself out?

I AM huggable, pinchable and lovable. A complete package. Just like your personal teddy bear. Plus, who could resist my cheeks? Nobody! *evil laugh*

Ok, maybe you’ve had enough of this weird profession of my narcism. And you’re probably wondering, ok, now we know that you’re cute, so what? Well..

I wasn’t always like this. After a bout of depression, I realized some things. Everything in life boils down to attitude. Yes, to be bold enough to accept one’s weaknesses and work with your strengths. Carpe diem. To be optimistic. All those cheesy humanitarian movies were right. Of course, I’m not satisfied with being cute. Other goals are to be brilliant, enigmatic, and the list simply goes on. I have made steps towards those goals (ah the optimism!). And then there’s the goal to find my equally cute significant other. Now, that will take a lot of work. For now, I’ll just take it one step at a time.

Attitude is everything, my friends. Everything.

You.

You. The very mention of your name make girls swoon over… so when you told me you loved me, it was as if time was at a stand still… as if all the alcohol I have drunk was racing to my head and conspiring to make it explode.

You. Synonymous to player, babaero, manloloko. So when you told me you loved me it was as if the world made the biggest joke… and I was unfortunate enough to be the butt of it.

Drink alcohol.

You. Pursued me and with every attempt I made to evade your charms I was getting sucked by an all consuming black hole. And as was inevitable I gave in.

Drink alcohol.

You. The perfect trophy. Shining with all your glory. Handsome and rich… and that was your only purpose to me, a trophy. But as moments pass that I spent in your arms, I knew that I couldn’t fool anyone. Not even myself.

Drink alcohol.

You. Say the words I want to hear… your expression of your love move me to tears. Why has life decided to be so cruel to me? Why can’t I suppress this feeling that I have for you that has grown so completely awry?

Drink alcohol.

You. Are my self-torture device. That I myself have chosen to turn on… and you made the first step turning it off… as I was crying myself to sleep one night for the pain was to unbearable, you were there and without a single word you held me cradled me in your arms telling me that you would never leave me and you’d be sure to fight anything that would hurt me… chase away all my fears as your eyes were drenched as well in tears… at that moment the pain was gone… even the stupid hangover that I’ve grown not to mind. “Never leave me” you said, “chase away all my fears” you said. But didn’t you know that act had already chased my fears away. Because that was all I wanted… for you not to leave. The tears rolling down your cheeks were all the sincerity I could ever ask for…

You. Make me believe in chances. As I woke up with your eyes intently watching me, as you gently kissed my forehead I thought to myself maybe, just maybe you really do love me… with that one thought I smiled. He smiled as well, saying “I think I’m in love with an insane woman! One minute she’s crying, smiling the next.” And then he giggled, my God! How adorable the sound he made! Then seriousness in his face returned “why were you crying?” silence. “Fine! If you won’t tell me why you were crying at least tell me why you were smiling.” Silence. “Maybe” he said “you shouldn’t drink anymore.” And I said “I’d give up anything for you.” He smiled then kissed me… but in my heart it answered: “You. You were the reason for everything. The torture. And thankfully, finally the delight.”

I know what I am facing is not an actual guaranteed happiness. But I also know this feeling is much better!

*smiles*

notes.notes.notes

This one is actually quite funny:))

Progress notes ng isang malanding nurse:
- receive patient conscious, coherent and handsome with great smile, nice eyes at super hotness lever
- GSH (great sense of humor) assessed
- THB (totally hot body) inspected
- friendster checked and recorded
- (+) sign of intelligence and wealth
- (-) sign of boastfulness
- conversation rendered
- encouraged flirting
- needs very much attended
- due cellphone number given
- TLC (tender lovin care) rendered
- endorsed to best friend

*ismaylz*